Personal story

I Just Don’t Know What To Do Anymore

By: A Survivor Not a Victim
April 8, 2016

I am approaching the end of my rope and don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it, I can’t cope. I have done everything right, and nothing is working out for me. On top of that, I’m seeking help, sharing my story, both here and with family and friends in person. I’m seeking counseling, and nothing is bringing ease to my pain and suffering; I am not feeling any better!

I’m in a pit of deep dark and despair, with no hope or glimmer of light. I have been through a lot of tough times in my life (and no, I am not talking about love struggles, but I do know firsthand how terribly awful those are and can be), so I am no stranger to dark times. I have always remained positive and come out ok; this time, I am getting worried. I have never felt such despair, anguish, or such a loss of words (which, for me, is not typical).

I don’t know how much longer I can continue like this. I keep looking at my two little dogs; they are the only reason I have not relinquished hope and given up, but it is getting harder and harder to function, live, and breathe. I don’t know what to do

Unknown's avatar

Published by A Survivor Not a Victim

Rape victim trying to recover. The road is not easy.

11 thoughts on “I Just Don’t Know What To Do Anymore”

  1. Keep sharing and keep reading other’s stories of hope and survival. You WILL get there, just as SurvivorThriving said. It is hard and it sucks, but it will happen if you keep moving forward. When I was there, someone told me to take each day at a time…literally putting one step in front of the other, and it really helped. It’s hard to look forward and deal with everything our minds throw at us simultaneously, especially when we are not mentally in a place to deal. But if you literally take one moment at a time, you can get there. So many of us have shared your pain, and we are cheering for you. Lots of hugs and love!!

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Thank you so much for your comment, kind words and suggestions. I am in tears. I have only had a couple of meetings with the counselor, and my primary Dr. wants me to see a psychiatrist, so I am waiting on a referral. Your support means so much! I just want to recover so that I can help others (well…of course for myself, but I have never in my life felt such a desperate desire to help create a change and help others ).
    Thank you. ♡

    Like

Leave a comment