By: A Survivor Not a Victim
April 8, 2016
I am approaching the end of my rope and don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it, I can’t cope. I have done everything right, and nothing is working out for me. On top of that, I’m seeking help, sharing my story, both here and with family and friends in person. I’m seeking counseling, and nothing is bringing ease to my pain and suffering; I am not feeling any better!
I’m in a pit of deep dark and despair, with no hope or glimmer of light. I have been through a lot of tough times in my life (and no, I am not talking about love struggles, but I do know firsthand how terribly awful those are and can be), so I am no stranger to dark times. I have always remained positive and come out ok; this time, I am getting worried. I have never felt such despair, anguish, or such a loss of words (which, for me, is not typical).
I don’t know how much longer I can continue like this. I keep looking at my two little dogs; they are the only reason I have not relinquished hope and given up, but it is getting harder and harder to function, live, and breathe. I don’t know what to do
A Survivor Not a Victim 
Honestly, the fact that you’re “doing all the right things” shows there is hope. There is still a flame within, some small part inside that KNOWS you deserve to live. You DESERVE happiness. I can’t promise you’ll get better soon. I won’t say therapy is a cure all. But in my own journey.. all I focus on is surviving one day at at time. If I try anymore than that, it consumes me. Accept when you are hurting but know: YOU ARE NOT YOUR DEPRESSION. YOU are a writer, you are are dog lover, you are a friend, you are someone’s child. You can survive this pain. I know you can. I know that you will. I believe in you.
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Thank you! It is very reassuring to hear these things from someone who has been there.
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