By: A Survivor Not a Victim
March 15, 2016
This is my life— depression, exhaustion, sleepless nights, miserable mornings, long days, no joy, panic attacks, high anxiety, and no support system. I hate how I feel.
I just want to get back to my normal and happy self. The woman who appreciates all that life has to offer—the person who can see the good in every bad situation. But there is nothing good about being raped; no good can ever come from that! I don’t know how to get back to good. I don’t know how to be able to sleep at night. Or how to stop the images that pop into my head out of nowhere. I don’t know how to stop being scared. I hate what I am going through. I hate what he did to me. Why did he do it? Why? I’m a good person. No one should ever have to go through anything like that, no one! It’s not fair.
I don’t know how I’m going to get through this or if I will get through this.
A Survivor Not a Victim 