I am losing it. I just can’t take it anymore. I can’t handle it; the sleep deprivation, flashbacks, jumpiness, depression, being fearful every day that I am going to see him. It takes such a toll on me. I’m literally exhausted!
I’m obsessed. Obsessed with trying to find a way to bring him to justice. It has completely consumed me.
I am becoming more jumpy each day. I can’t even count how many times someone came up to me at work today and I jumped clean into the air. It’s embarrassing, frustrating and fills me with anxiety. And when they ask why, I just in an awkward way tell them that there is a reason, and thankfully that ends the conversation.
I can’t live like this. I don’t feel strong, or like a survivor, or like myself.