I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW! I JUST WANT TO SHUT MY BRAIN OFF!!!
I hate what you did to me. I hate how I feel. I hate how I can’t sleep. I hate how I can’t eat. I hate that I get flashbacks. And images of your disgusting face in my mind. I hate who I have become, someone I don’t know, or like, or can even define.
I was once so viscous, full of life, complete, and content. You took that away in a moments notice with no warning or accord.
I can’t concentrate, I have nightmares, I am jumpy and on edge. I’m constantly looking over my shoulder, I am scared and tormented.
I wish I could just sleep. Sleep until these feelings go away, but even sleep is not peaceful, for forever in my mind you stay.
A Survivor Not a Victim 