I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW! I JUST WANT TO SHUT MY BRAIN OFF!!! I hate what you did to me. I hate how I feel. I hate how I can't sleep. I hate how I can't eat. I hate that I get flashbacks. And images of your disgusting face in my mind. I hate who … Continue reading I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW
Category: PTSD
The joy in my life has ceased A veil of tenebrosity ensues What has my life disparaged to How can one man incite so much anguish For a person should not have the kind of power over you Yet, when a person defiles you, that assertion does not hold true. To have your boundaries disregarded … Continue reading DARK AND WITHERING
Exhaustion, depression, anxiety, tribulation, indignation and preoccupation is my current state. For I cower at the thought that I don't know how much more my soul can take. Strong, resilient, vivacious was I. Now, transformed into a defeated faux pas. How long will this semblance persist? Every breath I take makes me not want to exist. My body is distressed, it's toilsome … Continue reading DEFEATED
It's nearly midnight and I should be sleeping But thoughts of anxiety and anguish penetrate my mind, they are creeping. As the ebon circles under my eyes grow darker My cognizance distorts to a despondent state of preoccupancy About that night, the violence done to me. As each day passes my face grows more pale My eyes … Continue reading Sleep Won’t Come
A Survivor Not a Victim 