I am really struggling with recovering from the rape that happened to me. I hate how I feel, I hate who I am right now.
The facts: 1. I was drunk, but that doesn’t mean anything. 2. I told this creep earlier before I was too drunk that I would never sleep with him. 3. I woke up and he was on to and inside me.
My biggest regret, I should have immediately went to the hospital, period. I was too scared. But had I went to the hospital, evidence could have been collected. My BAC level would have been checked (I was still drunk at noon the nextday ), and there would have been a higher chance at having the DA actually decided to prosecute my rapist.
Instead, I am stuck feeling broken, and having no way to get justice. This just adds to my terrible feelings, and inability to function on a daily basis.
A Survivor Not a Victim 