I have had a very hard week. My grandpa died, the funeral was Monday (actually, what we had, you can’t call a funeral, but that is not relevant to this blog ), the family is in crisis because of awful things going on, and I still can’t cope with my rape. I am a mess right now, just a mess. I still can’t find a roommate, and I am concerned about work because I have missed so much of it. I am a wreck. The past few days, I just want to give up completely!
Sitting on my bed a few minutes ago, I was thinking about all the people who care about me. Who really care about me and that felt good for two seconds (I will take it!). I have always been the person who can put myself together and focus on the positive no matter what, but this has not been and continues to not be the case since February and I find it extremely frustrating.
Then I looked at my two dog’s. They were both staring up at me with their big almond shaped eyes. They know that I have not been well, as I can tell by the beyond extra love they have been giving me. I love dog’s ( especially mine) because they are so intuitive. And all they want is love, and to make you happy. They have been a big help for me.
My oldest, has previously been banned from sleeping in the bed for almost a year because he kept peeing in it (he is old ) and he was given chances, but I couldn’t take it anymore. A few days ago I was so sad, I decided to let him sleep in the bed. (He loves to put his forehead on my forehead, especially when I am feeling down ). So far, no accidentes thankfully. In fact, I woke up the other night. I sleep in a queen bed. My old boy is 10lbs, the baby is 6lbs. I woke up, the older one was pushed up as close as possible on my back, the baby, nestled on my back side in my neck…and I was on the edge of the bed…..lol…literally.
If I can’t be strong for myself, I have to be strong for these two. Their undying love and loyalty, and literally always here for me the way that isn’t possible for any human to be. I’m not saying that to take away from everyone who loves, supports, and is there for me, it’s just dog’s do this on a completely different level that humans can, and vice versa. I am glad that I have bothgoing for me.
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