Since I was raped on February 14th this year (2016) I have been suffering from major anxiety, PTSD, suicidal thoughts and so much more. About two weeks ago, I passed my rapist on the street. I had a panic attack ( which I have never experienced in my life). Since then, I have been even … Continue reading So Anxious; I Can’tDeal With This Anymore
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I feel so defeated, so anxious, stressed, fearful and...I don't even know. I also feel like my job of four years is in jeopardy. I’ve always been a smart and successful person who never gives up! This is not me now. I don't know who this is, and I fear that I will never know … Continue reading Feel Like I’m Starting To Loose The Will To Live
Below is a list of common myths and facts about rape. MYTH: Victims cause the violence that has happened to them FACT: It doesn’t matter what someone is wearing or how they are acting, no one asks to be raped. People who sexually assault often use force, threat, or injury. An absence of injuries does … Continue reading Myths and Facts About Being Raped
I have had a very hard week. My grandpa died, the funeral was Monday (actually, what we had, you can't call a funeral, but that is not relevant to this blog ), the family is in crisis because of awful things going on, and I still can't cope with my rape. I am a mess … Continue reading Trying To Find The Will To Stay Strong
I live in the apartment where I was raped. He is gone, the locks have been changed, I have a restraining order, I should be safe (inside the apartment at least ). But when my dog's bark at night, which they just about never do, I immediately panic! I turn on my light, grab my … Continue reading I’m Terrified
A Survivor Not a Victim 