By: A Survivor Not a Victim
July 7, 2016
Being raped is one of the worst experiences that a person can live through. The aftermath of rape is equally as terrible. As if being raped isn’t bad enough, the trauma from that event, the memories, the scars, they last forever.
It is bad enough that I am TERRIFIED to leave my house or work once I arrive there safely. This is my everyday reality.
My roommate left a few days ago and won’t be back till next week. I’m petrified to the point where I sleep with a kitchen knife under my pillow.
It is completely unfair. My rapist lives his life unaccountable for his actions, untouched, unharmed, and I wouldn’t even be surprised if he jerked off to what he did to me that morning just for fun. Meanwhile, I am cursed to continue to live with flashbacks, nightmares, fear, visions, and the inability to concentrate, sleep and eat.
I live every day of my life in fear, to the point where, on most days, I become so overwhelmed with fear that I start to shake uncontrollably, and this happens many times throughout the day.
Rape has ruined my life.
A Survivor Not a Victim 
I’m from the USA. Thank you. It’s like the detectives only sat down with me became they “had” to. So frustrating.
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That’s awful 😦 where are you from? I’m from England. They took it seriously immediately. I’m so sorry for you 😦 especially when you had the courage to report it!
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