By: A Survivor Not a Victim
July 7, 2016
Being raped is one of the worst experiences that a person can live through. The aftermath of rape is equally as terrible. As if being raped isn’t bad enough, the trauma from that event, the memories, the scars, they last forever.
It is bad enough that I am TERRIFIED to leave my house or work once I arrive there safely. This is my everyday reality.
My roommate left a few days ago and won’t be back till next week. I’m petrified to the point where I sleep with a kitchen knife under my pillow.
It is completely unfair. My rapist lives his life unaccountable for his actions, untouched, unharmed, and I wouldn’t even be surprised if he jerked off to what he did to me that morning just for fun. Meanwhile, I am cursed to continue to live with flashbacks, nightmares, fear, visions, and the inability to concentrate, sleep and eat.
I live every day of my life in fear, to the point where, on most days, I become so overwhelmed with fear that I start to shake uncontrollably, and this happens many times throughout the day.
Rape has ruined my life.
A Survivor Not a Victim 
Thank you. I’m so sorry for everything you have been through and for what you are currently going through. You are not alone 💞, and I’m so glad that this blog has been able to give you some comfort. The PTSD and isolation is so awful and people who have not been through what we have been through will never truly know what it feels like. Sending you healing vibes✨
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thank you for sharing. I can truly relate with what you’re going through … it’s the first time in over a year since I was sa that everything you are saying has gave me some comfort from another person… it’s been weighing heavily on me and my close friends abandoned me cause I can’t talk about what happened… it’s awful the isolation and ptsd that I’ve endured… thank you for your bravery. Means a lot that you shared.
God bless you.
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