By: A Survivor Not a Victim
July 7, 2016
Being raped is one of the worst experiences that a person can live through. The aftermath of rape is equally as terrible. As if being raped isn’t bad enough, the trauma from that event, the memories, the scars, they last forever.
It is bad enough that I am TERRIFIED to leave my house or work once I arrive there safely. This is my everyday reality.
My roommate left a few days ago and won’t be back till next week. I’m petrified to the point where I sleep with a kitchen knife under my pillow.
It is completely unfair. My rapist lives his life unaccountable for his actions, untouched, unharmed, and I wouldn’t even be surprised if he jerked off to what he did to me that morning just for fun. Meanwhile, I am cursed to continue to live with flashbacks, nightmares, fear, visions, and the inability to concentrate, sleep and eat.
I live every day of my life in fear, to the point where, on most days, I become so overwhelmed with fear that I start to shake uncontrollably, and this happens many times throughout the day.
Rape has ruined my life.
A Survivor Not a Victim 
I hope one day I can come to develop the strength you have. You are an inspiration! I love hearing from survivors like you! 💖
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I am so sad for you. There is hope, though! I am also a rape survivor, and although it has taken me many years of intensive therapy, the scars did not last forever. I am almost completely healed and I rarely suffer flashbacks. I refused to allow what that man did ruin my precious life. He does not have the power to change my heart or ruin my life.
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