By: A Survivor Not a VictimApril 22, 2016 Since I was raped, I have been experiencing horrific nightmares! Sometimes they are about him, other times they are about men that I know are assaulting me, but last night was the most disturbing nightmare that I have ever had in my life. EVER! I can still … Continue reading My Dreams Have Gotten Out Of Control
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By: A Survivor Not a VictimMarch 30, 2016 I am losing it. I just can't take it anymore. I can't handle it; the sleep deprivation, flashbacks, jumpiness, depression, being fearful every day that I am going to see him. It takes such a toll on me. I'm literally exhausted! I'm obsessed, obsessed with trying to … Continue reading I Am Losing It
By: A Survivor Not a VictimMarch 26, 2016 I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW! I JUST WANT TO SHUT MY BRAIN OFF!!! I hate what you did to me. I hate how I feel. I hate how I can't sleep. I hate how I can't eat. I hate that I get flashbacks. And images of your … Continue reading I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW
By: A Survivor Not a VictimMarch 26, 2016 This article, written by Carolyn Spring, gave me much to reflect on. While some of the information is helpful, I couldn't help but become furious when they say that flashbacks are a good sign. Seriously? I am an intelligent, well-educated woman, and I highly doubt that the author … Continue reading Flashbacks…A Good Thing? ??
By: A Survivor Not a Victim March 23, 2016 Exhaustion, depression, anxiety, tribulation, indignation, and preoccupation is my current state. For I cower at the thought that I don’t know how much more my soul can take. Once strong, resilient, and vivacious. Now, transformed into a defeated faux pas How long will this semblance persist? … Continue reading Defeated
By: A Survivor Not a VictimMarch 23, 2016 It's nearly midnight and I should be sleeping But thoughts of anxiety and anguish penetrate my mind, they are creeping. As the ebon circles under my eyes grow darker, My cognizance distorts to a despondent state of preoccupancy About that night, the violence done to me. As each … Continue reading Sleep Won’t Come
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