I research the topic of rape every day of the week. I do this because I am looking for many things; answers, help, blog post ideas, etc. One thing I have been researching a lot lately is how to cope with being raped. I still do not understand how anyone is capable of this (but I … Continue reading Coping With Rape; I Just Don’t Understand How I Am Supposed To Do This
Tag: Depression
Smile so bright and eyes so blue.On the outside she looks happy, but no one knew.That inside she was numb, broken and subdue,Boundless afflictions torment beyond her control;Leaving feelings of blackness and decay in the depths of her soul. But no one will know....For she hides behind her lively smileAnd big doe eyes.No one sees … Continue reading Almost Gone
I feel so defeated, so anxious, stressed, fearful and...I don't even know. I also feel like my job of four years is in jeopardy. I’ve always been a smart and successful person who never gives up! This is not me now. I don't know who this is, and I fear that I will never know … Continue reading Feel Like I’m Starting To Loose The Will To Live
I am having such a hard time functioning as a human being right now! I am so full of regret and guilt! I wish that I did something to stop him from raping me, anything! At the very least, I wish that I was not to scared or shocked to call 911 after it happened … Continue reading Full Of Regret, Guilt and Shame; Can’t Move On
I know that I cannot control the universe, but seriously, I have been dealt such a bad hand. I'm running out of time and options to find a roommate to fill my apartment, and my rapist refuses to pay rent even though he is still on the lease. My rental history is perfect. While I … Continue reading So Scared
This tortured mind of mine won't rest Anxiety, depression and thoughts of terror possessed Repulsive memories flash through my mind In bits and pieces discombobulated and intertwined. Day's are dark and night grow blacker, Leaving me breathless, restless, feeling sadder With each passing night the nightmares take fight And every passing day the flashbacks … Continue reading Tortured Mind
A Survivor Not a Victim 