I have to admit that I have to find this halarious, because if I don't, there is no way that I can cope. My father and I have not had the best relationship in my life life. The past few years it has been better. He was struggling with family issues and taking care of … Continue reading Rape; A Father Not Caring
Today started off wonderful. It is sunny and warm. I was actually happy this morning (which is very very rare these days ). Around 11:30 I left the office to run to the grocery store to grab something for lunch, and a coupleof other things. I was almost at the store when walking down the … Continue reading I’m Never Going To Be Ok…Can’t Believe This Happened Today
Awful Broken Choked Damaged Emotional Fearful Guilty Hurt Insignificant Jittery Kaput Lost Mutilated Nervous Overwhelmed Paralyzed Queasy Restless Suicidal Tired Undefinable Violated Weak X - is his name ie THE RAPIST Yucky Zero
Today is my 33rd birthday...but it doesn't even matter...I am not even celebrating. I have no plans, I made no plans. I am broken beyond belief because of what he has done to me. No justice, no responsibility, free to do it again to some other woman. I still can't sleep, can't eat, I am … Continue reading Today Is My Birthday…But It Doesn’t Even Matter
Alright, so I have these neighbors who live behind me. A couple in their 40's with three children, two of which who live at home I am friendly with the wife. She is a very nice, strong-willed and loud. I do hear this couple fight all the time. Sometimes it sounds like bloody murder in their … Continue reading What Just Happened?!?!??
I know that it has been a long time since I have posted, and that I have not been posting daily as per usual. I have been in such a dark dark place. It has been just about 4 months since he raped me. My dreams, flashbacks, sleeping issues, concentration, eating issues, etc. are really … Continue reading Can’t Even Describe How I Am Feeling